Happy New Year Everyone! If you are like me, this time of year always carries a lot of memories, poignant and strong, that seem to swirl around in my head and heart, making me love and appreciate everything I have in life. Have you stopped and considered everything that has been so much a part of your life this year? Have you realized what has molded you into who you are from experiences you have grown from this past year? Has this year held significance in your life? Will you remember this year for something special or something sad? Does the new year bring new hope to you? Is your life changed by the passing of this year? Do you wish that you could change things or do them over again? Have you said everything that you wanted to? Have you regretted not saying the things you wanted? Have you regretted saying the things you did? Did you go after your dreams? Did you stay up late enjoying friends and family? Did you bond closer to people than you ever thought you could? Were your perspectives changed about people and their human nature? Did you sit close to the ones you loved and enjoy their conversation that left you thinking about it for days? Did you get reaquainted with ones you missed? Did you get to meet someone new, someone that will always be a part of your life? Did you say goodbye to someone you love deeply, waiting for their return? All of these things and more have happened to each of us and they are more significant than we sometimes ever really consider them to be. How will you change in this next year? Will you say what you want to, will you rekindle old friendships or make new ones? What will your focus be and will you live great memories like the past year has given you? I hope that this new year brings you all that you had this past year and more!
So I went into this cool store in the mall today. I haven’t been in the mall for what seems like ages. It’s been at least a year and I think that the last time I was in there I was on a mission for something that I knew I needed. So, no, I haven’t been in the mall to just walk around and check everything out in forever. Honesty I really don’t like shopping. Goodwill is more my type of shopping center. Anyways, my hubby got me a t-shirt at a store called Hot Topic in the mall. He thought that I liked the band on the shirt and he got it for me for Christmas. When he gave it to me he asked if I had ever heard their music, I can’t recall ever knowing if it was them if I had heard them. So, I decided to return it and get something different. Before I went I asked my friend where Hot Topic was in the mall and she told me. But then she decided to tell me that it was a Goth store and that it was a dark atmosphere in there, she kind of implied that it maybe wasn’t the kind of store where I would find anything good to buy. Well I took the shirt back and there were so many things that I would like to buy in that store. The clothes were all pretty cool and more the style that I like to wear than in most of the other stores I buy clothes at. I could have spent a good amount of money in there and the music was cool and the people working there were really nice. To make a long story shorter, I really dig that store. I guess that I have realized that sometimes I am in to a lot of different things that throw the whole normal viewpoint off of whack. I don’t like to be normal or common, I enjoy finding new and creative things that intrigue me and stretch my horizon. I think that when people get older they tend to stick to the same old thing. They find comfort in the rituals of life and they often get stuck in a trap of contentment. I do enjoy a nice ritual here and there, but for the majority of my time I find ritual just makes me bored and restless. I really never wanted to be like everyone else and I am sure that most people probably feel that way in some capacity. I think that I am a little more on the extreme of being unusual, wouldn’t you agree? ;) My whole point is that I find comfort and energy in enjoying myself and finding things that make me happy, whether it is new or old and I hope that I will always pursue things that stretch me and increase my horizons.
Well the semester is officially finished. I just checked my final grades and I did better than I thought. What a relief to be done! It's a good thing too, because I just started getting on myspace and I am an official addict of it. It's amazing how many old friends I have been able to talk to and reminisce with. I always told myself that I wouldn't get caught up in it, that myspace was from the devil and just a way for people to get their identity stolen away. It is really a great thing though. I could spend so much time on there getting the friendships that have been stolen away with time restored. What a great time stealer and saver at the same time!
The fall semester is almost done! I officially finished my organic chemistry class this morning. I studied all week whenever I found time to look over the notes. I took off on Monday and I got up 2 hours before the test to cram a little more information into my already full head. The test took 2 hours and I finished 20 minutes early. I think that could be a good thing considering that I at least tryed to finish all of the questions.
Did you ever feel a mental weight lifted off of your shoulders? As I walked out of the class I literally felt lighter, I think that I caught myself smiling in fact. And to top it off on the way home from the class I actually thought about not having to do anything for the next 5 weeks. I thought about cooking, and getting together with friends I haven't seen for awhile, I thought about all of the video games that I have neglected for so long, there are new movies that have been in my house for months that I haven't found the time to watch yet, I can finally clean the house like I want to, I can spend that extra time at work making the big bucks instead of studying, and the list goes on. It's funny how something so time consuming can be gone in the blink of an eye.
